Closure

I feel such a sense of peace knowing my family is complete. Being able to finally focus on my children and not the questions; the 'maybes' and 'what ifs' and uncertainty of child bearing. Though I don't totally understand why it took 6 years for Elias to come...I try not to question it too much...I trust it was intended that way for whatever reason.We are whole and complete and it feels good to really know that and be able to have that closure.  I am happy and content with motherhood right now. It's hard, gut wrenchingly hard sometimes, without much recognition or thanks, however; the joys could not be found anywhere else and it feels so beautiful to me. It is a gift that I am grateful for every minute of every day.