In 3 short days me and the kiddos, along with my mom and niece, Brea will board a plane and head to Hawaii. It is our 5-year Esplin Family reunion. Hawaii is as much apart of me as almost anything, an extension of my identity. Its hard to even put into words what this place means to me and the memories and feelings it evokes.
It's definitely a different thing being a mom here. The freedom and independence that surged through me in college will be a lot more tamed now. Being pregnant with kids tames it even more. Still, I hope that even a little of the happiness I once felt there, the identity revelation that always emerged will also touch my children, will change them and give them renewed purpose. And I hope that once again, it will rub off on my too.
