Pregnancy is all consuming for me right now. I'm trying to find some balance, to prioritize other things but it always comes down to this baby growing inside me. How he's making me feel, what I can and can't do, what I can eat that might ease the nausea, how tired and uncomfortable and hot I always am and honestly how hard it is on me and how I can possibly last another 3 months. The days are long, weeks are fast. At the end of the day I feel grateful for having made it through and for the opportunity to sleep but also that I still have this baby growing and what a miracle he is.
School for the kids starts in 2 weeks and I know time will fly by as our schedules and demands pick up. Primary priorities will increase, the days will get shorter, the sunlight diminish and before I know it, the time for the baby to come will be here and a whole other set of challenges and wonders will befall me.
What I know right now: I am greatly and deeply blessed. I love being a mother and having the opportunity to raise my children. I have loved them this summer. Though I haven't felt great and I'm sure missed opportunities with them, I have had these glimpses of pure happiness. Us being together, laughing and talking. The kids all gathered around fantasizing about this new baby, watching my stomach for little movements making the whole things seem more real. I know that in-between all the hardships of motherhood and raising a family that it's those glimpses of happiness that foreshadow heaven and how much Heavenly Father loves us. This year in primary I have gained such a testimony of families and that because Heavenly Father loves us so much, that is why he gave us families and why they are central to his plan of happiness.
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