Wednesday, May 6, 2015

Something has to go

I have this friend...Yes I guess we are, er...once were friends. We went to high school together and ended up becoming roommates as college freshmen, hundreds of miles from our hometown. I know you would think that is enough to seal an eternal friendship, but lets just say that living together revealed her true colors and I didn't necessarily like what I saw. She wasn't thoughtful or helpful and frankly often unkind. She was dishonest and manipulative. Needless to say, my Freshman year wasn't my favorite of the college years. I have seen her a handful of times since then back in our hometown which she now resides with her husband and 4 children.  We are "friends" on several social networks so I am in the know on her happenings which she isn't so modest to report about. Some of her accomplishments include: aerobic instructor, a successful professional photographer, designed and built her home and now soon to be published author. She got an literary agent and just signed a 3 book deal with a respectable publisher.
It's not that I'm jealous. Not entirely anyway. Its that I don't understand her priorities...what areas HAVE to be lacking? Being a fellow LDS mother I feel like outside of my responsibilities to the children that absolutely have to be done each day, and doing my calling, there is a very limited window of available time to dedicate to other things. I can choose to spend it making nice homemade food, working on my house, exercising, shopping, hobbies, friends, but the key word is LIMITED or else my family and my calling suffer. Most days I exercise because I love it and it keeps me happy, I make nice meals because I enjoy it and because I know Joe looks forward to that at the end of the day and then I have time for maybe one or two other things. Sometimes I write or read. Sometimes I clean or go on bike rides. But that is it. The day ends and sleep must come. So how does her day go? By what I know of her, I can't help but think its her family that must suffer in the end. And I can't help but wonder what those sacrifices will cost her in the end. Will those personal successes be worth it in the end?

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